The following is from my personal journal, with names redacted to protect the innocent. I haven’t updated this (blog? Site? Garbage dump of the soul?) since fucking April, and not that anyone’s checking back for updates, I figured this particular piece of writing might provide some insight as to why that is. I suspect that … Continue reading She’s Alive, But She’s Not Doing Great (featuring a real journal entry)
Author: Cosmic
I’m a 43 year old human with ADHD who gets knocked down, and then gets up again, and intends to do that until the curtain comes down. Proudly AI-free and in complete ownership of all her mistakes ♥️
The Sisyphus Shuffle
Saturday sunset, 04/20/24 (it was a lot more pink in person but the colors are still pretty) I have writer’s block. Sort of. I guess it depends on how one interprets “writer’s block.” When it comes to fiction, my hurdles are workable ideas, plot, and character development; in the realm of poetry, my obstacles are … Continue reading The Sisyphus Shuffle
The Magical and Maddening Properties of Time (Only Slightly Tamed By a New Special Interest in Spreadsheets)
Hello, gentle reader. It has been over a month since my last confession post, and while there hasn’t been much happening of note, I’m still frustrated with myself for such a span of silence. I was out of ADHD medication for a while due to shortages and miscommunication with my doctor’s office and with that … Continue reading The Magical and Maddening Properties of Time (Only Slightly Tamed By a New Special Interest in Spreadsheets)
Stupid Mental Health Walks & Sunsets
Sunday, February 18th Monday, February 19th Tuesday, February 20th First, here’s the Stupid Mental Health Walk song [this will open in youtube],which I also sing in my head as Stupid Mental Health Skate, which is actually what helped me back to the rink. When you’re reluctant to do the thing sometimes being a crabby butthole … Continue reading Stupid Mental Health Walks & Sunsets
Wheely? Wheely?!: The Mirrorball Strikes Again + January Reading Roundup
Hello friends, and welcome/welcome back to my little knothole on these here internets. A couple of weeks ago I wrote here about being on the web pre-social-media, and describing this space as a “knothole” just now unearthed a memory from under the decades of other dusty, moldering recollections: that my first website was titled “(Terrible … Continue reading Wheely? Wheely?!: The Mirrorball Strikes Again + January Reading Roundup
Wheely? Wheely?!: Petty Observations and Assorted Complaints From the Skating Rink
We Begin This Story With a Lengthy Preamble So I played flat track roller derby for like… seven to eight years? This figure depends on whether I count that first year of learning. At the time, the league I skated with had an eight-week “fresh meat” skills program that generally graduated new skaters into the … Continue reading Wheely? Wheely?!: Petty Observations and Assorted Complaints From the Skating Rink
The Art of the Half-Arse Essay (or: I’m Just Fucking Doing It Already)
(With gratitude to dear Sebrina for reminding me that oh yes! My website exists and is still a thing if I want it to be ♥️ ) So I haven’t posted here in five forevers—not that it matters much in the grand scheme of things, and not that I managed to write/post art/promote enough to … Continue reading The Art of the Half-Arse Essay (or: I’m Just Fucking Doing It Already)
Time Myopia of a Different Sort
Hello pals, it is me, your ADHD Squirrelfriend, here to tell you three things: First thing: I have been on ADHD meds for a month and a half, and with the exception of the first disastrous day and the recent bumpy adjustment to a generic version of the prescribed medication, it’s been a nice return … Continue reading Time Myopia of a Different Sort
Quick Review: Sure, I’ll Join Your Cult by Maria Bamford
Image: The cover of Sure, I’ll Join Your Cult, featuring Maria Bamford in vintage white dress Midsommar-y attire, staring at the viewer from a cheery sunshine yellow backdrop. Hello friends! Feel free to stop by my StoryGraph for an impromptu review: Sure, I’ll Join Your Cult by Mara Bamford, published by Gallery Books and released … Continue reading Quick Review: Sure, I’ll Join Your Cult by Maria Bamford
Caffeine, Caffeine, Caffeine, Caff-eeeeeinnnne (With Apologies to Our Lady Dolly)
[tw/cw: frank discussion of suicidal ideation and feelings surrounding it ahead—the first two paragraphs are okay, and some mention in the conclusion, but if you just want to see what I’m reading and what I’ve added to my massive TBR pile, skip down to the /////.] Hello! It’s September! And after a bit of a … Continue reading Caffeine, Caffeine, Caffeine, Caff-eeeeeinnnne (With Apologies to Our Lady Dolly)
Cosmic’s Read-o-Rama 