Hello, pals! This is exactly where I would like to be uploading a fresh new COSMIC LOVES MOVIES—in fact, the very first one, since last week was just an introduction—but I got so involved in today’s mini essay about the origins of my lifelong fascination with and delight in horror that I realized I’d be doing it no favors by rushing it just to have it out today. It’s important that I keep up with my self-imposed schedule so I’m creating and writing new things, but equally important that I recognize that I am working on it. Creating whole pieces—even of the mini variety—takes more time and care than I am used to giving myself, especially in this “go, go, go! Produce, produce, produce!” world.
(Here’s the expected ADHD connection, because you knew it was coming: timeblindness can also mean not perceiving the big blocks of time I actually have been spending on things, resulting in the feeling that I haven’t done anything even when I’ve spent all day on it; I can’t gauge the time it takes to do things, nor how long I’ve taken. But I’m working on it with notebooks and calendars and things like this honest examination and exposure of my struggles.)
My new goal is to have this particular piece up Wednesday, which will also give me a little while longer for some additional research. In drafting the skeleton today realized I’d need to brush up on some of the factual information regardless of how personal the subject and focus—to keep it tidy and anchored in reality, not just my perceptions. Though I really need some mental version of horse blinkers when it comes to research—the rabbit holes are many and the warren is deep and wide. Oh, that’s prescription stimulants. Bummer for me, I guess I’ll just keep the coffee hot and fresh tomorrow! It’s a minor version of the real thing, but it’ll do.
BUT IN OTHER NEWS:
I have finished Grady Hendrix’s The Final Girl Support Group (IN FIVE DAYS!!) and I had a wonderful time—an ADHD Book Club review is in the works. And with the help of some crochet to occupy my hands, I’m 75% of the way through Kayla Cottingham’s This Delicious Death. It’s due back on Wednesday and the audiobook gets yoinked right out of your device in the Libby app when the due time rolls around, so finishing that tomorrow is my other main goal. Also, I have finally started Chuck Tingle’s Camp Damascus (alternating e-book and audiobook narrated by Mara Wilson), encouraged along by a compelling review [external link to YouTube video] by Willow Heath at Books and Bao [external link to YouTube channel]. I am fairly new to BookTube, as I believe the kids call it, but I quite enjoy and appreciate Willow’s thoughtful discussions, which have greatly enriched my virtual bookshelves. I highly recommend this channel.
Well, that’s enough out of me for one evening—I’m going to get back to that research I was talking about! I hope you are having a lovely time of day no matter what time it is, and I also hope that you know this: no matter where you are in life, you are valuable and valid and deserve to be here. It doesn’t matter if you’re “behind”—it’s not a race. It’s okay to be moving slower than the rest of the world, or to be unsure of what you’re doing; as long as you’re moving in some fashion, that’s what counts, right? Right. Now give yourself a little squishy hug from me. We’re all in this together, amigos. ♥️
Cosmic’s Read-o-Rama 